Today I started a book called "Girl, Wash Your Face." If you haven't heard it, it's about the author, Rachel Hollis, that shares her struggles and challenges as being a woman and mother. Within the first ten minuets, I was bawling. ... I have been running a private women's group on facebook and never really shared much about myelf. Now it's my turn.
It's November 1st. We made it. The last few months in our calendar and it's already almost Christmas...again. Wow. This year has flown by. The last few months that invite darkness. The time changes and our evenings are cut short. The sun is vacationing away from us for a while..and it gets cold... dark. Anyone else feel this way? It is always a tough time of year for me, even if I try to see the good, there are always times in my day where the darkness finds a crack to squeeze through.
Throughout my life, I've finally learned some ways to cope with this. But, as I grow older, I've found that I have to change the way I cope, because I am and will constantly change, and that's ok. There are days when turning on loud music to drown out the darkness works...and there will be days when needing a big hug fixes all of my problems. Sometimes I don't reach out to people, even though I know I'm having a bad day. Why don't I? ... I don't know, but it's time to really change this. Take care of myself, physically and some would argue most importantly, mentally.
I think I've always been this way; and I pray my girls don't have to suffer with this...Because it's draining. The constant worry, the constant battle of darkness in my mind...
THAT is why I do what I do. Making others able to see a sliver of light and beauty in their reflection makes it all worth it to me.
I'm struggling, and I'm glad I'm not alone. Rach and me are buddies now, but she doesn't know it. I follow her live on fb and listen to her wise words... I hope I can provide some wisdom for you like she has for me. XOXO,
Sara
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